Mental Blockage, feat. Paint

Do you ever feel like your creativity has been completely drained? Once upon a time, I had a great imagination, doodled all the time and could come up with creative ways of expressing myself. Not the case these days. I feel like I have a huge creativity block smack dab in the middle of my right brain (Right, right?). I need to find a way to express myself through imagery, rather than words.


I want to be able to envision new ideas and execute them- something I used to be able to do. Now, there's no reason to do that, no time to do that, and I'm losing the skill. Professionally, people want you to follow the Standard Procedures, use grown-up expression and creative planning is superfluous. Nobody needs you to think outside the box, and so you don't. In the past few years, creativity hasn't had any reasonable place in daily life. My friend Abby is an artist by training, profession and passion. When she was feeling stuck, she signed up for a painting class- I'm certainly not a painter and my "art" would be displayed on my parents fridge with a tight smile and a meek "wow, this is...very nice, Stephanie..."

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Tangent- I need to sign up for a dance class. And not like your mom's dance class where they do jazz hands and stuff, but something more in line with my former training.

Have I written a post like this before? Forgive me if I have...and if I have, you can see this is a recurring theme that's plaguing my daily experiences.

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I read this article about having faith in yourself as far as moving forward in a career. The article reminded me that your experience is what you make it and with or without feedback, we can trust our instincts to guide us into engaging, productive work. I think it can also be applied to my creative side. I'm feeling a void, but by making creativity a priority and committing to it, I should be able fulfill this part of myself.

The author of this article is this girl. She's younger than me, and I'm pretty young, but she's writing fairly inspiring career based articles. I'm so jealous. I want to do more and be more- I don't feel like I'm measuring up to my peers.